When I look back (over my shoulder…lalala) I can see how any mistakes I made. Some bad haircuts, a lot of wrong diets and thousands of guys errors!
Sergei Kwztjz, blond, tall, cute, russion last name. He caught my attention with his use of fashion terms: “look that gorgeous scarpin!”; “I love channel haircut!”…But he was clever and nice. Our relationship last a few weeks. One month after our break I heard that he kissed one of my friends, a guy. Now you say: Claudia, the facts were right in front of you! Yep…I know…
Cry Guy was a very close friend of mine. Although he was 21, he was having a lot of first experiences . In addition: he was insecure and spoiled. The last time I saw him, he said, with tears in his eyes ( he cries all the time, and emo!) that he didn’t want to talk to me never again. Quite childish, hã?!
Mr. Drums appeared in my life in a very difficult moment. I was having a familiar problem, and I was about to break up with my boyfriend. Mr Drums was everything I was looking for: he was very easy-going, e was a very good musician (and some other things as well!), and the best: he lived in a foreign country, which I was living for a couple of months! We stayed together for 3 months, and when I got back to Brazil he convinced me that we should try a distance-relionship. Well, in 2 months he broke up with me, saying that he was afraid that I could cheat on him. “I’m sorry, you are beautiful, you’ll find someone.”
Short time ago, I heard from a very cute guy: “I would love to “be”with you. But I’ll have a lot of problems doing this. So, don’t take us too seriously: we’ll supply the need of caress of each other” (go get a toy!)
Well, I could spend hours writing about the problems I had with guys. But now I want to understand: why do we make so many mistakes?
Talking to my sister, I made some theories: did my mom hugh me enough??! Did my dad traumatized me being so strict??! I don’t know….
Maybe the real problem is: I’m trying to find someone minimally normal, to put some order on my own mess…
Why do I go after someone who clearly doesn’t want me? Why do I get into relationships I know will fail? It seems I’m looking for more problems…
Sergei Kwztjz, blond, tall, cute, russion last name. He caught my attention with his use of fashion terms: “look that gorgeous scarpin!”; “I love channel haircut!”…But he was clever and nice. Our relationship last a few weeks. One month after our break I heard that he kissed one of my friends, a guy. Now you say: Claudia, the facts were right in front of you! Yep…I know…
Cry Guy was a very close friend of mine. Although he was 21, he was having a lot of first experiences . In addition: he was insecure and spoiled. The last time I saw him, he said, with tears in his eyes ( he cries all the time, and emo!) that he didn’t want to talk to me never again. Quite childish, hã?!
Mr. Drums appeared in my life in a very difficult moment. I was having a familiar problem, and I was about to break up with my boyfriend. Mr Drums was everything I was looking for: he was very easy-going, e was a very good musician (and some other things as well!), and the best: he lived in a foreign country, which I was living for a couple of months! We stayed together for 3 months, and when I got back to Brazil he convinced me that we should try a distance-relionship. Well, in 2 months he broke up with me, saying that he was afraid that I could cheat on him. “I’m sorry, you are beautiful, you’ll find someone.”
Short time ago, I heard from a very cute guy: “I would love to “be”with you. But I’ll have a lot of problems doing this. So, don’t take us too seriously: we’ll supply the need of caress of each other” (go get a toy!)
Well, I could spend hours writing about the problems I had with guys. But now I want to understand: why do we make so many mistakes?
Talking to my sister, I made some theories: did my mom hugh me enough??! Did my dad traumatized me being so strict??! I don’t know….
Maybe the real problem is: I’m trying to find someone minimally normal, to put some order on my own mess…
Why do I go after someone who clearly doesn’t want me? Why do I get into relationships I know will fail? It seems I’m looking for more problems…
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